how i want to live in 2017
Today was my first day of semester 2 at vet school and tonight I’m taking the opportunity to rewind. Lights dimmed, music on and a cup of tea by my side as I look to the year ahead.
My last couple weeks of 2016 were blissfully spent with loved ones. I only had two weeks of Christmas holidays and it passed in a euphoric blur: a long catch up with a close friend, an extra special Christmas Day with my family and boyfriend, many a game of Monopoly, mulled wine and gingerbread, my parents’ home cooking and a beautiful New Year’s firework display among others. A precious finale to what has been a year of incredible ups and downs.
I don’t want to dwell too much on 2016 tonight, except to take what I experienced and learned and apply them to how I want to live the days and months of 2017. At the start of each year despite making my own resolutions with good intention, admittedly I have never found them all that effective. This year, I want to gift myself a word to live by. Simply ‘Live.’ It can be both broad and specific. A word that I can carry with me as a value, as a reminder.
Live. Why ‘Live’? I spent so many days last year merely existing, lost, letting time pass by. This year I want to throw myself wholeheartedly into every single day, to feel purely alive. To create a life worth living so that this time next year I know I did and achieved as much as I possibly could.
I want to live creatively. Write until there are no more words and only an ache in my hands remain. Don’t wait for inspiration to come, seek it. Take things that are sad and dark and craft them into pieces that are soft and light and hopeful. Share my art and tell my stories because every voice matters. Even mine, especially when I feel small and insignificant. And I want to live curiously. To be enthusiastic about learning. To read voraciously – fiction and non-fiction. To be inquisitive about the world. To ask questions and never stop.
I want to live compassionately. To be kind to others and to myself. To develop my empathy, to try and understand even when it would be easier not to. But to also know where my boundaries lie and to know when I should put myself first. I have always been my own worst critic, pressing down hard on my shoulders. When my mind becomes noisy and turbulent, when I feel woefully inadequate – and I know I will at some point – I want to remember that I am enough. That I have never stopped growing and I will keep on learning and growing. Maybe I’m not exactly who I want to be right now but I can do something about it, whether that’s changing my own attitude or making a different choice.
And last but not least, I want to remember to live in the moment more often. Absorb the beauty of the world around me and open my eyes to the simple joys that are right in front of me but easy to forget or ignore. Last year I discovered how relaxing it is to take a walk, to feel the wind in my hair, to marvel at nature. Noticing the different hues and colours of the sky and the trees soothes my soul in ways I never imagined it could. Throwing my head back to the inky night skies and picking out all the stars, the pinpricks of light, makes me feel at once small and infinite. These simple things can mean so much.
Live, live, live. Be bold and fearless. Worry less. Enjoy every minute. Here’s to 2017 and living.
What are your words/goals/resolutions for 2017?